Now, I can see the appeal of alcohol. Though I still don’t think it tastes good, it helps. When you’re drunk, and you lie in bed at night, you fell asleep almost instantaneously. There’s no noises inside your head. No “what ifs” or “what did I do wrong” or “what should I do” or “whys” When you’re drunk, you can cry all you want, and never have that conscious way of stopping your tears and faking your smiles. When you’re drunk, there comes a point where everything is funny. You feel happy. For one night, you forget your troubles.